Right now, the only creative output I’m focusing on is boardgame development. I don’t have anything new signed with a publisher and I don’t have anything planned for self-publishing. To be honest the last couple of years I have not been able to get anything new in the pipeline. That seems to be because:
- I have very little time to do any creative/design work. I get 30 second snatches here and there at my day job.
- By the time I get home I feel like so burnt out I don’t have much desire to keep trying to force creativity.
- And in general, just general creative block, probably magnified by all the stress, tension, poor health, lack of sleep, lack of time, etc.
I have several games in development right now. The biggest one I keep refining and reworking but it never feels like it’s biting exactly. And all the other ones I try a couple of tests for never quite feel like something I want to keep working on.
I have a Game Design site and a twitter feed, but use both of them very rarely. I don’t feel like I have the time or energy. This is bad because I’m not building my brand at all.
So there’s that.
Right now I have three sources of income, i.e. jobs.
I have a consulting position doing a variety of jobs for a private client – some pc support, website support for the business, some MS-Access development. This is really great for the most part – a fixed stipend each month, and the work isn’t too time consuming. A few crunch times a year and needing to be on call.
I have a “day job” working for an MSP (managed service provider). Boy, do I hate this. I don’t dislike the work, per se. But dealing with having no time for my own stuff at work, constantly having to account for time, coming to work to find out every minute of time has been budgeted for? Lame. No lunches, no breaks. I can run out for 5 minutes to get food I can eat at my desk while I’m doing tickets. My last two jobs have been for this kind of company. This and the consulting job takes care of about 100k of my yearly salary (which is 99% of it).
I also get about a grand, on average, a year from my published boardgames. Which for the newbie isn’t bad, it’s pretty good, but not a lot of money to change a lifestyle or anything.
Debt is not so great. I’ve got about 10k in credit card debt. I’ve got a 30k unpaid tax bill that if I don’t resolve post haste will get my bank accounts shut off. I’ve been paying stuff off but I seem to be accumulating faster than I pay off, especially on the consumer debt side.
Expenses are there, not insane, but a little high. About 200 in utilities a month. 250 in car expenses (payment/inisurance). Another 100 or so misc. Food is high since I’m not asking wife to split – about 600 a month? 100 a month in Starbucks… I know, I know. A lot each month in Amazon for sundries – probably 200 or so. Cat food, cat products, books and supplies. Occasional parts and art supplies for boardgame prototypes.
I’ve had this blog for a while now. A few times before, I started posting, mostly for myself as a journal. Then (as usual) after a few posts I stopped. A year passes….
In any event, due to some new circumstances with my life, I’ve decided to try it again. Let’s see if I can keep it going.
Note: this is the third year in a row I’ve looked at this. Ugh.
Just to be clear: the idea is I do one journal entry a day to show what I’m doing on any given day.
What I did today (9/13): Nothing. Worked. Felt sorry for myself that I’m getting old. I guess I get one day to do that, right?